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Shot By: Logan Meis
Produced by: Lex Nour Beats
#Joker #cyberbullying #thejoker #mentalhealth
But I think you know that already
You call me EVIL but how would you know it unless you LIVE it already
You think you’re better right?
Because nobodies seen what you’ve done in the dark but if I put your life in this light you would crumble and fight to survive or die but bitch I fucking knew that already
I eint SPECIAL,
But I SPECALize in making you feel eSEPCIALly stupid for judging a human
while you sit at home and whole world judge can’t watch what you doing or follow and hate all your movements I eint complaining but I know the people who do it are sicker than me and i’m sick enough I might just lose it
You think know me cuz you double tap on picture
I hate the fact that you judge me it’s driving me crazy so when it’s to deep I say fuck it and drown in some liquor
I write these verses in blood I got chapters for days cuz my heart is my biblical scripture and I’m not a prophet but I can predict that you’ll never catch happiness till you’re the pitcher
So please continue to laugh if I’m a clown your a circus act
When I rap it’s with a SURGEONS MASK
Cuz I PLACE every syllable in a deliverable fashion from first to last, then CUT back with a message that’s hidden in melody making them think and ask if I was the one on the table pushing GIVING BIRTH to rap
Maybe it was me
Maybe you like all my music but don’t really actually love me
Maybe you just want a picture
Maybe you just want to see me cuz you need some money
Maybe you think that I’m happy
Maybe you think in reality liking my post is repairing a hole when it’s actually shaking and cutting the soul right out of me out
I think I’m sick
I feel a rush of emotion whenever I post up a pic
I got problem
I’m in the studio rapping while this girl is sucking my dick
She cut a whole in my heart now I fill it with women who love me cuz they think I’m rich and if I be honest I just told a bitch that I care but I really do not give a shit
So what’s your excuse?
What helps you sleep?
You leave a negative comment not knowing what you sew you will reap
I bet you smile when you post thinking you’re hurting me, but you see the way the brain works you become what you speak
I need peace!
But y’all can’t offer that
I held my ground, I didn’t sell my soul
I said fuck the fame y’all can take that offer back
Fuck a shelf you can/t take me off the rack
All the fame is not worth a heart attack
You’re insane, you’re in pain, I can tell by what you saying!
I forgot you were fragile
I forgot someone who doesn’t even know me told you I’m an asshole
I forgot that I’m a villain
I forgot that I’ve always spread positivity but you think I didn’t
I forgot that hatred stems from people who hate their own existence
I forgot I’m better off alone
I forgot I care about everyone’s happiness but forget about my own
I forget I spend every waking second on my phone….
COME JOIN MY CIRCUS!
I’m taking everyone who passes judgement bitch that’s including:
Everyone who thinks it’s so amusing
To put me down while I’m pursuing
The key board warriors that live online behind a screen that’s just an illusion
Come come come join my circus!
You fucking pricks!
I’ll fuck you till you love me then pay you to do some tricks,
I don’t need a doctor I need a bag of nails and bricks to lay down on the floor so if you fail to land a flip you can feel what I felt when you tried to come sink my ship
Let me explain, you all help me financially gain but I spend my money on mental health books and read them just to control all my pain
I don’t wear clothes
but this bought chain and just like you this chain fake,
I wear it to distract you from blatant sadness written on my fucking face
What’d you expect?
Did you think I was immune to what you were saying and didn’t see all of the disrespect?
Do you think I’m not human, have no feelings, or maybe you think I’m fucking weak and now I’m pleading, maybe you think I’m just too good and that I’m cheating?
Or maybe just maybe
You’re blind and the hate inside your heart clouds your eyes and your mind and your ears when I rhyme, even though we all know I’m one of the best of all time,
Or maybe you’re just a fucking bitch and I can’t
Stop comparing me to people who are not in my league,
Stop saying I don’t believe in God just because you can’t read
Stop making fake profiles so you can spam my feed
I’m not alone I know there’s millions out there just like me…